I Am in the Realm of
Pure Spontaneity
Teacher: Mother Spirit (“Nebadonia”)
Dear Mother Spirit and Michael, welcome. We open our hearts, our feelings, and our minds to welcome you. We thank you for these insightful lessons, your encouragement, and the way how to renew ourselves and our relationships. For this is the key how to love and appreciate both ourselves and the others we meet. This is truly beginning to be quite an adventure, like we were made for it! Amen.
Nebadonia: Good evening, my children, this is your mother, Nebadonia. I feel your heartfelt greetings and I assure you I feel welcome indeed to be here with you. Just relax and let my presence swell in your minds. Take a deep breath. Let it go. Remember I am all around you spatially. You can best feel me by relaxing your attention and letting it turn everywhere outward. This kind of tingling, cushion-soft pressure, this fundamental consciousness of being conscious and alive: This is me. I am with you, right in your bodies and permeating all this inner space you feel as your mind.
You will find that as you approach stillness, your mind—being intrinsically and delightfully curious—will try all kinds of things to get a hold on me. But I am a bit more subtle than that. I cannot be held as you might hold a concept; I cannot even be anticipated. I exist in a realm you can only think of as pure spontaneity. I am nowhere near as bound, my children, as you are by various physical and mental antecedents. For this very reason let me offer the insight that this is how I can be most valuable to you. As you relax various concepts and ideas as they occur to you, you are just clearing the way for my presence—my essence—to swell and increase within your inner awareness. As you become more adept at this, you will notice that your thought processes just generally tend to slow of themselves as you realize more and more deeply that there is nothing to apprehend, there is nothing to grasp hold of as you are normally doing all your waking moments.
During normal wakeful consciousness your mind acts like a small hand successively grasping concepts and ideas that your personality is creating so you can keep yourself company, you can talk to yourself, you can figure things out, you can analyze any number of projects or past events. As I mentioned several weeks ago, this is a wonderful ability—this linear, sequential, one-at-a-time kind of mentality that you use as a tool to get through your busy days, constantly analyzing what you are doing and creating what to do next. And this process becomes so unconscious, so culturally conditioned, that many of you know no other form of consciousness. In fact, if most people are awakened from sleep, whether dreaming or not, they will simply tell you what they were thinking while they were sleeping.
It is this kind of mentality, this type of mental activity associated with a sequential process, that we invite you to take a break from as often as it occurs to you. This can be just sitting down and closing your eyes, taking a deep breath, heaving a little sigh, and saying, “Hello. Here I am again, Mother. I’m checking in, welcoming you, inviting myself to feel your presence, if only for a few moments.” Obviously, if you are driving your car, this would just be a mental greeting. You might perhaps just look around and say, “Thank you, God, for this life I’m living. Here’s a little moment of worship for you.” But by creating these special moments you are taking a break from your linear continuity, your focused attention, to un-focus for a moment. You just relax and let that which cannot be anticipated—the larger realm of spirit personality—impinge upon your mind.
Don’t forget, too, my children, a great part of this spiritual awareness and presence is a dimension of your own personality. It is part of who you are. This is your own creative ability—your ability to escape, if you will, a binding causality—a to do that by bringing something new into time and space, to open to that which you cannot anticipate. For it is within this space that you contact not only us, your celestial family, but also your own creativity, your own spirit.
Share your life with us and ask us for help
You have in us an immediate spirit mother and father, and you share with us the Universal Father of all creation, a fragment of whose being lives in your mind and writes the experiences of your personality as your soul. You have a guardian angel*, an experienced seraphim who has volunteered and gone through a rigorous training to accompany you through life and create and maintain an epiphany of this life you are living. And now, since the adjudication of the Lucifer Rebellion* and the lifting of the spiritual quarantine that Urantia has been cocooned in for some two-hundred thousand years, you also have access to volunteer celestial beings. These are ascendant mortals and other seraphim who have volunteered to come to Urantia expressly to share their lives with you, and with whom you can share your life. Because none of us in your celestial family will initiate this contact and intrude upon your life, you have to initiate the contact. You have to welcome us into your life so this contact can be conscious for you.
Just as your most profound and heartfelt worship is a way of thanking our Universal Father for his creation of all that exists, so too your prayers, my children, are a heartfelt and sincere asking for help. Articulate with as much detail that satisfies your desires, what you want of us. Use us. We belong to you. We are here for you, and so we ask of you, share your life with us.
What you are experiencing day to day is unique in all creation. Share it with us. Offer us your prayers. Don’t be shy to ask for help. Otherwise we cannot help you in quite this way. If you do not ask for help, my children, we must assume you wish to try this particular part of your adventure by yourself. This is your life and we will not intrude upon it. So ask us for help, especially for those of your fellows whom you know need it most desperately. It is hard to explain and so it requires a measure of faith on your part to believe when we assure you: Your prayers for another do not in any way intrude upon their freedom. So this is truly a way you can actually help another person. Formulate your prayers, your conversations with us, as best you can. But then take a break from even this and be open to our reply.
Here it helps to have a paper and pencil handy to jot down what you hear within you. Our personal spirits are very subtle and, as strange as this may seem at first, you have to give us reality for yourself. You have to acknowledge us as real. It helps to do so to by writing down the impressions you receive. This process can be continued, as many of you are finding out, into a prolonged contact with a spiritual teacher, sometimes an ascendant mortal. Here I’ll mention your friend Welmek* with whom many of you have had contact. Or, it is often a seraphim who has come to Urantia to participate in the Correcting Time* and the Teaching Mission* of the planet.
In this regard, I invite you to realize that almost every human being is capable of contacting and enjoying a celestial teacher. I say “almost” only because you first have to have the faith that this is possible, then the determination to try it, the openness to receive this contact, and the willingness to give it reality by writing down this conversation as it appears in your mind.
Imagine a world in which most of the citizens are in tune and conversing with a spiritual teacher in this manner. Because all spiritual personalities are perfectly coordinated, this has no parallel in human reality, that is, a situation in which you have complete individualization of unique beings in perfect spiritual accord. But this is what is possible and available to the human race through this contact. And this is just one more way that, person by person, the human race will come into spiritual accord.
The stillness we invite you to experience is a door to your own creativity and contact with your celestial family—a way of making this family real for you. Use your own curiosity as a bridge until you get to the reality of this experience. At some point, the experience of contact with us, especially with your own personal friend and teacher, will become unmistakably real as someone other than you. You will probably not know at first whether or not this is just your own imagination, your own creativity or memories, but after a while it will be unmistakable: You will have found a friend like no other.
It will, as you say, blow your mind. That’s the idea! Let your mind expand until, as I suggested once before, you realize that—in “here”—there is no top or bottom, there are no sides. You are floating in me. And then, beyond me, you are held in the loving grasp of the Infinite Spirit* of Paradise. Your immediate father, Michael, is always beside you and in your heart, and the Universal Father of all creation is right within your mind. You are never alone, my children, and I would love to have you realize this. Will you give it a try?
If you have any questions or comments this evening, I would be glad to hear them.
Student: Mother Nebadonia, thank you for your information. You’ve answered most of the questions I had, and have given me inspiration to reach further. I thank you.
Nebadonia: Well, you are most welcome. I enjoyed the discussion all of you had before I joined you, for you were all very much on the right track of realizing that stillness can often be just taking it easy for a while and following your feelings—often just wondering what your feelings are. Then following them. This is what I meant by thinking of stillness in less formal terms as just relaxing. Challenge yourself—though this may sound ironic: Challenge yourself to see if you can feel Michael ’s peace. It is there in your heart and your feelings, ever so deep and restful. So just relax and let it swell forth. As you relax, you often will feel a little ripple go through your body and sometimes even the physical space around you. Give us your trust that this is the best way, the most creative and fulfilling way to enjoy your life. And be in my love.
Student: Thank you, Mother.
Second Student: Yes, Mother. You mentioned that you want us to use you, you and Michael, but how do we do that? How do you want to be used? How do we pray? Sometimes I have a difficulty in putting things into words. Did you hear my prayer last night before I went to bed, my tearful prayer before I went to bed?
Nebadonia: Yes, my son. As your mother, as your connection with your life, I experience everything you experience. This is who and what I was created to be by the Infinite Spirit.
Within this life we share together, you as a personality—in asking for the help of spirit—need to first realize what you want; you need to articulate this to yourself. This is essentially what prayer is. Michael and I, and God himself realize before you do what you need and, consistent with our own universal law, we provide this to you. Still, we appreciate your heartfelt worship of thankfulness for all the conditions of your life that we support.
When you, with the power of your own creativity, think of a deep need that you personally feel, and fully express this in a prayer, then you are more capable of joining in a partnership with us to fulfill this need. And I remind you that before, all during, and especially right after you express your petition for help, you need to listen. For to the extent that you are open to a genuine answer that you yourself cannot create or anticipate, to this very degree we are able to answer you.